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Death By Hollywood

It's not as if no one saw it coming. We all saw it coming, like, twenty years ago, right? The death of Corey Haim. From a drug overdose. In a shitty L.A. apartment complex, no less. It was in the cards. Even he knew it. Still. When I read the news today my heart jumped into my throat and I shouted for Serge, who was just walking out the door for work.
"Serge! Corey Haim died!"
I heard him pause. "Heroin?"
"Dunno. TMZ just says drug overdose. Maybe accidental. Mom! Did you hear that? Corey Haim died!"

She met him once. Said he was a sweet, fun boy. He was filming a movie in Provo. Fast Getaway, I think it was called. He and Feldman had long since parted ways and their careers were on the fast track to no where. Mom was with a friend in Provo and stopped to watch them film the movie. She called a thirteen year old me from a pay phone and said, "I am looking at Corey Haim right now."

In my naivete, I thought he might stop by our house. You know, to hang out and stuff. I actually rushed to the bathroom and put on make-up (blue eye shadow and Chapstick) and curled my bangs. I don't need to tell you he never stopped by. Later, mom told me how Corey and his bodyguard had helped pop a dent out of her car. A blue Camaro, for those of you old enough to smile about curled bangs and blue eye shadow. A bitchin' blue Camaro with a spoiler and black, window louvers. If you smiled about the blue eyeshadow, you're most certainly laughing now.

In sixth grade my best friend and I wrote a fan letter to Corey. I still have it somewhere because we didn't know where to send it. If I recall correctly, it included the very earnest sentence "if you're ever in Orem, Utah you should swing by and we could hang out." AS IF! Weren't we the cutest, though? If you're ever in Orem you should swing by... It was the first and only fan letter I ever wrote.

At the end you could barely see the ghost of the cute boy he used to be. What a sad life, to peak at fifteen. God, Hollywood blows.

Reader Comments (13)

So sad. And such a waste of a young life and talent. But you totally called it, we all saw it coming from way down the line. Time to rewatch Lost Boys I think!
Also, your fan letter is pretty cute, I can well remember the excitement of writing to my favourite star at about the same age although I'm pretty sure my parents never mailed it, which looking back might be for the best!

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterVicki

I don't know what makes me feel older, that a Corey died or the fact that he was 38. In my head, the Coreys will always be 16. Of course, that means I'll always be 11. Know what? I have to think this through.

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterjeneria

Yes, I laughed at the bitching blue mustang, only you can write like this, Monica. I still think of him in the Lost Boys too. Such success brings such tragedy. I see some of my readers over here. They have learned to love you!

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterLisa

Really sad life is so shirt to be spent struggling with an addiction. The only letter I remember writing was to publishers clearing house. Left it on my front door invade I wasn't home when they stopped by!

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterHolly

I smiled at the blue eyeshadow and Chapstick but only because I couldn't laugh out loud at work. I never sent a fan letter in my life but I did paste magazine pictures on my wall of all the cute stars of the 80's. Corey Haim was one of my favorites.

I had forgotten about those black louvre things. Funny!

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterJenn

So sad how this happens to these washed up stars who fail to find work and fall into that wicked cycle of depression and drug abuse. My one and only comment on a fan site was after watching him on The Two Coreys. I felt so sorry for the guy, especially after reading the hate comments. RIP Cory Haim.

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterGina

Oh Jesus, I was once badly in Love with Corey Haim, actually after reading your post its quite freaky........the one and only fan mail I ever wrote was to him. All I remember was saying about how I also wanted to be an actress and how proud I was that he is/was dealing with his drug problems that he spoke about on ET, I guess I was about 12. I had such hope for him.

haha the swing by comment, I used to just day dream for HOURS about scenarios where I would bump into the stars I liked i.e. Corey and all of NKOTB. At our local mall where I would have to play it real cool and not be all school girly excited so they would want to hang out with me all day. Jesus my wasted youth.

Glad to see I wasn't alone!

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered Commentersharon

Wonder if Lindsay Lohan is taking note.

March 10, 2010 | Unregistered Commentercitywendy

Sad day! Funny the stars that we once had crushes on. Mine was Ralph Macchio. LOL!!! I have never writting a fan letter but I did write a fan you!!! The one and only. Maybe one day you could stop by and we could "hang". LOL!!!!

March 11, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterJaimee


March 11, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterJaimee

how about those bucket seats? any roach clips with feathers hanging from the rear view mirror?

March 11, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterGina

corey haim was the first guy i wanted to marry. and like jenn, he had a place of prominence on my bedroom wall.

March 11, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterchristine from canada

Thanks Christine from Canada for telling me that I wasn't the only one with boys hanging on their walls. I can remember putting roach clips with feathers in my hair. Good grief:)

My daughter is 10. Are the boys on her wall going to be Zac Efron and Taylor Lautner? Of course they are. And let's just see where they are in 20 years. Let's hope that their lives go well for them and they don't crash and burn like so many from our generation.

Love your blog Monica. Read it everyday.

p.s. I'm also from Canada.

March 11, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterJenn

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