Monica Bielanko
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I'm still here doing whatever it is I do. Change diapers, entertain Violet, work, drink beer and ingest some form of cheese, preferably melted. That is the gist of my existence. And I'm not complaining. I'd just like more cheese and less work is all I'm saying.

Hopefully I will receive some exciting news at the end of this week, but there I go, tempting the fates and asking for trouble just by bringing it up. I'll keep you posted. Promise.

I took the above photo of Spliffy and Violet two weekends ago and I'm really digging how he's slightly blurred but looking right at me. I have more photos than I know what to do with at the moment. I'm kind of lurking around the internet but mostly toying with photos. Lots of photos. What is a better medium to remember by, I wonder. Words or photos? I can't decide.

These were taken on Spliffer's last walk in the mountains above our house. We all walked around up there letting Spliff take in the smells and his hometown. I had to carry him home. It was the first and only time I ever did that.

And the photos below were taken one lazy Sunday two weeks ago. It was the first warm day in what felt like years. Not taking advantage would've seemed criminal. Serge was doing yard work while I followed Violet around snapping photos.

He looks tired, doesn't he? The hunched posture, delicate stance and half-closed eyes. Little guy. I wonder if he was in much pain. The vet said he had a tumor in his stomach the size of a grown man's fist. We knew about the one on his back, but not the stomach. After the vet pointed it out I don't know how we missed it. But we did.

And then there was before... Except, most of the photos of the first fifteen years of his life aren't digital, they're in packets of developed photos lying around in boxes in the basement. I managed to scrounge a few off my Flickr account, so, indulge me, wouldja?


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Reader Comments (11)

Oh, such a sweet face. I feel so sorry for you and your mom. It's such a hard decision, but you did the right thing. The pics of him with little toddling Violet are great.

April 21, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterKate

love the can see how much love you had for him. You have made me decide I want to live near the mountains, it's so beautiful and peaceful looking.

April 21, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterkacy

Awww, i'm seriously crying fat ugly tears right now. Cute little spliffer...what a beautiful thing to take him on one last hike w/ the family. If you could ask him, he would probably tell you it was worth the discomfort he might have felt to be given extra time w/ all of you.

April 21, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterChrissy

I love all the pictures.....he looked like he lead a great life thanks to you!

April 21, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterShelly

The 5th from the top, of Spliffer looking out over the world is perfect. He's there, but almost not. He'll always be there for you, Monica, he just won't be entirely in the picture anymore.


April 21, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterA-C

I'm with Chrissy- I am totally all teary now :)

It looks like Spliffer had such a happy, fun, romp around life. You guys obviously gave him a really great one :)

April 21, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterShauna (Fido & Wino)

So sorry about Spliffer. I 've had such fun reading about his antics. He's in doggy heaven right now, just romping around. Love the pictures, especially of Violet. She's just beautiful.

April 21, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterJane

Aw. He was totally awesome. I'm so sorry about it. I'm gonna be facing it soon (damn liver tumor). But she's still got some left in her and I ain't letting go until I have to.

btw, how do Mormon girls in Utah get SO TAN??? HA! That has to be a pic of you in high school...

PS - your mom is hot.

April 21, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterThe Domestic Goddess

This was a lovely tribute Monica. Clearly he was a great companion and he got loads of love in return.

Sorry again to you and your family for the loss ...

April 22, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterNJ

My greatest condolences. I had to make the same decision for my sweet Sable last September. Spliffer was a trooper, pal, and family member. I lift my eyes to the sky and give thanks to him and all his kind for all the love, protection, and friendship they unconditionally give us humans.

April 27, 2010 | Unregistered CommenterAllison

RIP Spliffer...

May 7, 2010 | Unregistered Commenterkimtisha

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